Things that bother me, but dont seem to bother anybody else....

I make myself sick to my stomack thinking about these things. They make me feel so scared, alone, and small. And they make everything else in the world seem so pointless and fake, almost like a prop.
I'm not kidding you guys, when I think about this I do get so scared I shake and I feel sick like I'm about to throw up or like I'm getting my period. ( I had to put both in there, because it turns out that guys DO read my blog post, and they're not gonna know what menstral cycles feel like.)

• Forever is a long a$$ time, so I don't know what I'm gonna do once I get up to the gates-o-Heaven. That seriously scares the living s*** outta me. When I think about it I feel all alone and scared.
• Space goes on forever.....(again, there's that damn word) Serously, you think space would run outta space at one point. And what if it does end? What comes after that?
• If we're gonna end up in Heaven or Hell one day, what the hell are we doing down here first?
• Why dont they mention Dinosaurs in the Bible? (this one doesn't scare me as much as the others)
• What's the point of life, if one day we're all gonna die anyways?
• Is reincarnation real? If it is, does that mean I'm legaly possesed? (this one doesn't really scare to much either.)
• How the hell does your soul become trapped, and if it does happen, how do you get it untrapped?
• WHY THE HELL AM I BOTHERED BY THIS BUT NO ONE ELSE SEEMS TO NOTICE OR CARE???????????

I feel a little better after letting it all out, but I'll be scared about it again soon. That's another reason why I love school and come to it everyday; it distracts me from these questions that are rotting me from the inside out. But I guess there only one thing a christian girl like me can do- put my trust and faith in God and make Him take my mind off this crap. Wow, this just got religious....only Bollywood.....

quote- Don't worry about the world coming to an end today.  It is already tomorrow in Australia.  ~Charles Schulz. *sigh* I'll do another one-Eagles may soar in the clouds, but weasels never get sucked into jet engines.  ~Attributed to both Jason Hutchison and John Benfieldsong- Nelly Just a Dream (listening to it right now)
word- forever(that word will never be the same again O_O)
celeb- Zak Bagans.